9-13-14

hey I know I should be posting here everyday to get out stress but its just hard sometimes ya know?
anyways so far this week has sucked the girl I loved was dumped by her bf I thought we were gonna date and I asked her out but now shes back with and I just cant take it im so tired of it
im stressing because I have this script do I have to finish a monologue  and im so tired I haven't slept in two days due to nightmares it  makes me feel bad when I lie to my friends saying im going to sleep but im really up all night thinking and breaking down I don't cry but I want to so I just sit in a ball and imagine a new story and think about writing it but I never do I finished reading and watching divergent and if you ask me the factions seem like a pretty damn good idea. anyways it does kinda feel good to write these but ill try to write another one by the end of the day

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hey blogger so the only reason why im doing this is because my friend cassie is telling me too
so ill release some stress. And you know what I hope it works because the last couple days have been horrible so I now know what I put my friend amber through twice a full on heartbreak.
It didn't really hit me till I checked Facebook a couple days ago and saw that she was in a relationship with her e.x Wyatt who is in my words a self centerd pot smoking drunk who cheats on every girl he dates he broke her heart twice as well And  left her for another girl. I did the same thing to her and left her for the same girl and I regretted it ever since and now whenever I see something about them together online it makes Me cry .
And you know I hate crying.
Its just I feel like I love her but she doesn't see it and she's happy with him and normally when she's happy I'm happy but not this time I don't like Wyatt I don't want him to hurt her again so please if theres anyone out there with tithe exception on one(you know who you are) please comment and help me?